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I've realized that checking out and taking the "easy" road has darn near killed me. This is me showing up, checking in, and attempting to undo the damage I've done.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Getting in My Own Way

I hate it when everything is going good and then I get in my own way. Why oh why do I start to feel down in the dumps when everything is going right? I feel like I'm getting depressed. All I want to do is eat junk. Is this because I'm still struggling with whether I actually want to live or not?

I think this is the time when I just need to push through my feelings. I always give in to them and start eating everything in sight and then I'm back where I started and have to start all over again. I'm sick and tired of having to start over again. I want to keep going. I need to keep going to prove to myself that I can lose the weight that I will lose weight.

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Weight loss stats

As of May 21, 2012 - 99.5 * As of June 11, 2012 - 88.25 (Yep) *As of May 20, 2014 -19 pounds *As of July 3rd, 2014 - 10 pounds.