Best Laid Plans

Do you every make plans to do better and then break them? The better question might be do you ever stick to the plans you make? I seem to spend all of this time making schedules and things that I need to do, when I need to do it and then never stick to it. I so frustrate myself.

I told my trainer I'd be better with my eating. I want to be better with my eating but I never get around to being better with my eating. Something sounds good and I just want it and I want it now. I don't want my life to be about food. Almost my entire life has been about food. I'm sick of it. I want to do things differently.

How do you change your habits? I want to but I guess not enough to actually do it. This week I WILL do better. This week will be a success if I get at least 100 oz of water in, pick up the living room, and actually cook a meal at home at least 2 times. 

Do or Do Not. There is no try. ~ Yoda

Turning Point?

I've been struggling with making better eating choices but I think I may have had a turning point yesterday. I over ate and paid the price. I was sick as a dog last night. (No offense to dogs) I really can't believe I keep doing this to myself. Eventually I'll learn right? Maybe last night was what I needed to help me be more aware of how much I eat.

I made a deal with the trainer today and I could eat on program for two days and then have a cheat lunch OR dinner, eat on program two days and have a cheat lunch or dinner.  I think I can handle that. No, I know I can handle that.

I've also started seeing an eating disorder therapist. I'm hoping that helps as well. I need to start going back to church I think that will really help.