Vent

I've been feeling like I don't want to go to church anymore.  No particular reason.  I've just been wanting to keep to myself lately.  Yes, I think I am feeling down.  I have to desire to workout either.  Partly because my leg is really bothering me, partly because all I want to do is sit at home and do nothing. 

I really wasn't feeling like being at church today but I went anyway because I had to teach my primary kids.  It's hard to stay in a bad mood around them.  Technically I didn't teach them about Moses like I was supposed to but we did go over the articles of faith.  They were so excited about learning them so they could check off that they knew them.  I decided to learn the articles of faith with them.  I told them we really had to do a lesson next week or I was going to get fired from primary.  Sophia was smiling and then it registered what I said and she got a serious look on her face and shook her head that I couldn't leave.  Of course I was joking but it was sweet that she didn't want me to leave.  They are listening to me better this week which is nice.  I'm not as reluctant to call them on their stuff.  Like Elise always wanting to sit in the window.  I'm beginning to think she just likes me to go through all the reasons she needs to sit in her seat because when I walked in she smiled at me and said I want to sit in the window. I told her we go over this every week and she knows that I'm not going to allow her to sit on the window sill.  That was all it took for her to sit in her seat. 

Weight loss doesn't make me happy yet I tend to focus on exercising and trying to fix what I do wrong.  It's not a purpose.  I feel like I have a purpose when I'm with my primary kids.  It's so cool watching them understand things and get excited about learning.  It's even fun when they try to get there own way.  My co-teacher would probably be horrified at how  not strict I am with them.  Okay, yes, I get the importance of reverence but if they aren't being loud or disrespectful then it's not that serious. I want them to look forward to coming to class every week, not dreading another boring lesson.

Granted I don't have kids so who knows, I could be doing things totally wrong.  They mostly sit in their seats and they don't ignore me when I ask them to do something. Today when I told them we had ten minutes to talk about Moses they all listened.  They gave me a hard time because I actually remembered the opening prayer today.  I forget a lot and they hardly ever remind me that I forgot but they love to give me a hard time about not remembering.